We named our son Coyer James Lony'aa. We wanted to keep his birth name as his second middle name. He was Lony'aa "Lony" for the first 9 months of his life, so we always wanted his birth name to be part of his name and story forever.
We spent hours playing with Coyer on the first day and chatting with his foster mom, Peggy. She told us everything she could about his history, health, and daily routine. We knew without a doubt that she loved him and we were so grateful. We knew this day was an answer to prayer for her, but also hard, knowing that in just a few days she would need to say her "goodbyes" to a boy she loved and cared for.
Coyer lived with his birth mom and older sister for 7 1/2 months before going to live with Peggy for the remaining 1 1/2. While we were there she told us how Coyer was not a shy boy and loved attention. This was very evident as he continued to play around us, crawling up on our laps.
After a while Coyer got hungry and Peggy made him a bottle. She said she would feed him unless I wanted to try, but said that he had a hard time eating for other people. I still wanted to try 😉 This was the first time I would be able to feed my son and I was NOT going to pass that up. It was a beautiful moment and God proved once again that He is faithful. Coyer took the bottle from me without any problems and Peggy was shocked. He drank slowly while looking up at me and I stared down at him in awe, taking in the moment. When he was done drinking, he laid his head down on my chest and snuggled. MELT. MY. HEART. This was a moment I never expected. Thankfully Danny got a few pictures of this, because he knows how much I like to document everything 😉 I'm so glad too, because this picture is hanging up in our home and will never come down. It was the first moment I FELT like his mom, like I could care for him in the way only a mother cares for her son. It was God's way of showing me that I was CHOSEN to be His mother.
When we left for the night, I could not be more grateful for the moments God orchestrated. He brought our family together in the most beautiful way and made us parents to the most handsome little man.
With Full Hands and an Open Heart- Kansas Fergen
Hi, I'm Kansas! I wish we could be doing this face to face over coffee. Maybe someday, till then this will have to do!